Recently I realized how important it is to be proud. To have pride in something is just so healthy for you. I recently realized that I don't have anything I truly am proud of and I'm worried. I want to go to Ryerson for film, statistically speaking I have a 5% chance of getting in. Out of 1700 students, they only accept 65 out of those applicants. When looking back at any artistic attempts in my life, I can only count a few that I truly respect and am proud of...
You see, I know what I want to do in life, but I'm not sure I'm quite there....maturity wise, talent wise, overall. This is frustrating, because ever since I was 12 I knew I wanted to go into film. The problem is I've never created a work ethic strong enough to make me one of those 65 students.
However, as opposed to sitting around and waiting for myself to mature, and become more talented, i'm taking a bit of a different approach. Self discovery is what I'll call it. I'm going to give myself 18 weeks to truly find myself, and develop what needs to be developed. I figure, if every week for 18 weeks, i make a video addressing my obstacles in life, and figuring out ways of overcoming them I can challenge myself by committing and also artistically.
By presenting this challenge, hopefully I can mature, and find my pride. It's very difficult to commit for me, so i'm really hoping I can do so.
what do you guys think? Am I crazy to make a video every week for 18 weeks? Am I just over analyzing myself? Or is it an appropriate experiment? Wish me luck!
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See, I beg to differ. Out of the work I have seen of yours (such as at the film festival) I think you are very skilled. And if you have wanted to work in film since you were 12, then you should work like crazy to get there. I wish I was positive of what I wanted to do.
ReplyDeleteHowever, if you feel that your work ethic and commitment needs improvement, then I think the 18 week challenge is a great idea.
Anywho, this post was really well written. I could definietly relate to what you were saying. It gets hard to step back and think 'what have I accomplished.' and its scary to know that universities are judging you on that. Well stated and easy to relate to.
And don't be too hard on yourself.
van i think your talented and i will always wish you good luck.
ReplyDeletethis is an interesting post, cool concept, i like the way you are able to take a step back and examine yourself.
good post, good luck
I think thats an interesting experiment to go with! It's never a bad idea to challenge yourself to create!
ReplyDeleteAnd we're always most critical on our own work.
But regardless this post kind of gave us a glimpse into the real Van lol :P
I enjoyed reading it.
You really have a way with making your posts personal and down to earth, if you know what I mean.