It has all happened so fast. Our high school career is already coming to a close. Those four years just flew by. Those times were fun, stressful, dramatic and memorable. But now we're in our final year, and quite frankly, I'm overwhelmed.
I feel as though I'm a child; cowering in the corner at big, scary words like
University,
College,
scholarships
and tuition.
Where did those four years go? I started high school knowing that post-secondary wasn't far off, but I didn't think much about it. And I put all thoughts of it out of my head year after year, until BAM! It hit me right in the face.
It now seems as though everything is flying at me at once. Many of my assignments are due in the next few weeks. And the rest of the semester consists of tests, midterms, scholarship applications, presentations, extra-curriculars, work, choosing where exactly I want to go next year, and finally applying. The next few months are going to be stressful.
Goodbye sleep.
Goodbye social life.
Reality has kicked in. And it's in full gear.
Everything is being crammed down our throats at once. And if one more person asks 'where are you going next year?' I'm going to scream.
Because I'm not sure. Yet.
I did not know that you had to have your life planned out the moment you hit grade 12. What I need is time to figure out what I want. It is going to take some time for me to find the perfect post-secondary school for me. To figure out what career I want, and the courses that support it. And I have to do this while balancing everything else. So give me some time. I will eventually find my way. Until then...
I cannot wait until this semester is over.
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Even after just looking back and reading this, I'm surprised I haven't suffered any mental break downs. The work load and stress of next year is hard, but somehow I'm managing.
So what are your thoughts? Do you feel the same way?
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ReplyDeleteThis is a scary thought o_o
ReplyDeleteI think every grade 12 can relate to the stress of balancing everything with the huge decision of what you're going to do with your life.
I think you effectively conveyed this concept, and the stress and the fear.
I really like this part: "I feel as though I'm a child; cowering in the corner at big, scary words like
University,
College,
scholarships
and tuition."
It was pretty rad. Good job! :D
I CAN'T WAIT UNTIL IT IS OVER EITHER AHHHHHHHH!
ReplyDeletei am just exhausted. i want it to be DONE!
"Where did those four years go?"
^^ i think we can all relate to this specific aspect of this piece. this is what makes it effective; we're all wondering the same thing. it feels like we shouldn't be heading off to our post-secondary destinations in a mere 10 months.
and i DEFINITELY agree with the whole "I did not know that you had to have your life planned out the moment you hit grade 12" .. to a certain extent, that is more true than anyone realizes. you have to know in grade 10/grade 11 when choosing courses for gr 11 and 12 what general field(s) you're looking at going into. It seems like university/college is so far away until you hit final year. then you realize that you're taking a victory lap to truly take the time to either bring up your grades or just to figure out what subjects you want to explore.
i think you did a very good job with the presentation of this idea. i also like the child reference, and the use of large font to emphasize "university, college," etc..
i would suggest going into a bit more detail with this, or reword it? i feel as though its left unfinished: "Those times were fun, stressful, dramatic and memorable"
.. but that's it.
*phew. see what you made me go through? i am never reading this post ever again!!:P (aka well done!!)
WE ALL FEEL THE SAME WAY!!!
ReplyDeletehow the heck am I supposed to know exactly what I want to do for the rest of my life, right now. I have no idea.
this is an interesting piece, you can really tell that you feel overwhelmed and are about to have a melt. you captured the readers attention and helped them to connect to your situation.
good job, good luck
I'll let you in on a little secret: I have lots of very happy friends with good jobs who didn't know when they were your age either. Some of them didn't figure it out until they were about 30, and they're still happy! It's normal not to know...and to be stresssed out.
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